Well, last Sunday was Father's Day, and it made me think about both my mom and dad, and the characteristics I've picked up from them.
In so many ways I am most definitely my mother's daughter. I'm stubborn and head strong. I get frustrated easily, I'm impulsive, I'm determined, and I am passionate like my mother. Every now and then I catch myself using phrased I can hear coming directly out of my mothers mouth. It always makes me laugh when I tell Tyler he better "shape up". My mother is a very complicated woman, and we have a very difficult relationship most of the time. It's a personality clash because we often have too much in common.
My dad on the other hand has taught me what I want to be and what I expect others to be. My dad has so much strength and dignity, even at the most difficult times. My dad is probably the most decent person I've ever known. The year Tyler was gone, I lived at home with my dad, and I really got to know him as a person, and not so much as my "dad". He's intelligent and kind, with the kind of faith and integrity that I envy, and a love for his family, my brother John and I, and his precious granddaughters that is unwavering. When I screw up in my life, I never question if my dad still loves me, because that is when he shows me just how deep his love for me is. My mom on the other hand, even when I do the right thing, I'm never quite sure if she even likes me, let alone loves me. This is similar to how love worked with my grandparents as well. Even when I do my best I'm never quite sure if it's enough for my grandma, but when I screwed up my grandpa was always there to tell me how very wrong I am but also how very much he loves me. I really miss him.
Thursday, June 21, 2012
The Rules
I've been collecting many rules and sayings to live by from Pinterest for some time now. I plan to do a wall in our living room in with these sayings. Anyway, I got my first two 12x12's done, and I'm extremely pleased with the results... I'm also super excited I found frames at target.com; 3 for $17.00. Hobby Lobby was $24 a piece.
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
Finally Got My Frame Done
I guess it's been close to two months ago, but Tyler came strolling in from work late one Friday night. I remember wondering where in the hell he had been, but when he walked through the door he had this huge collage frame for me. When I asked him why, he told me because he loves the way my eyes light up when he surprises me... Anyway, I FINALLY got my frame completed, after it took what seems like forever for my prints to arrive!!!
School & Junk Shopping
Well, I am back at it for the next 12 weeks... The first six weeks consist of a communications course and a learning lab. The don't seem to be too tough but, time consuming nonetheless. I think I put in about 12 hours on school Sunday night & Monday, so I was exhausted by the time bedtime rolled around.
I played slacker yesterday, since it was Tyler's first day off in a week. We had a really great day. We were suppose to go to the park, but it was hot and miserable, so Tyler made an executive decision. We got up late, went to the mall, where I found a fabulous sale on jeans and capris at Rue 21. I bought two pairs of capris for less than $25. I also got my nails filled and cut down, so I can type like a normal human being again. After our trip to the mall came the fun part....
I've always been a "snob" about shopping. If it isn't either expensive or with designer labels I typically don't want much to do with it. The joys of being a frivolous woman... LOL. I guess Tyler finally got me out of my shell about that. He decided that it was a good day to go "Goodwill" shopping, and it was. I didn't even know where "Goodwill" was located.
At the first location I was still a little weird about the whole idea, but Tyler found another fish tank for Fredward and Edward, with a functioning light. He also bought a couple of "poker" drinking glasses, that he was super excited about. That boyish smile always makes the unpleasant so worth while. I did browse a few of the clothing racks and saw a pair of Vera Wang Jeans and a pair of DKNY. I want to do some research on resale prices before I buy, as we could make a little profit on Ebay. If I could sell a pair of jeans for at least $8, I could double my money. I'm not sure if its worth the time it would take to look through racks of clothing... maybe some day!!
At the second location, I started to get into our "junk" shopping!! I found a bright and summery turquoise shoulder bag from The Sak for under $5 that actually fits all of my stuff. Then we started looking for objects to decorate our kitchen. Since Tyler has been home from his court appointed vacation, we haven't been able to agree on a particular style of decor, which is starting to come together (finally, it only took us 5 months), when I found this interesting looking bottle filled with sunflower oil, bay leaves, rosemary, juniper, etc. It was dark enough to appeal to Tyler, and had a tag from its Italian manufacturer which appealed to me. We also found a similar bottle with other herbs and spices with various peppers without tags, but it was interesting enough to match. We also bought a Foreman grill, a cutting block, and few other odds and ends.
The third location, I began having fun looking through the clutter. It was located on the lower east side, off of Southeastern Blvd, so we were in a beautiful and high-end neighborhood. I thought I had died and gone to shopping heaven when I spotted a vintage Prada handbag within the first 5 minutes. It was in a locked case for auction with several other high-end designer bags so I didn't ask about it. As we looked through what was the size of a small warehouse packed with "stuff" I found several other glass bottles with the same Italian feel as the other two we purchased. We also found this unique wooden bottle like nick-nack with a a waxy label. I can't really place what it resembles, but it looks very vintage (and looks incredible) with my new collection of bottles. I also found a set of three wall hangings that are about 8x8, ceramic, and I would guess to be hand-painted, with different variations of coffee (espresso chocolate, mocha cafe creme, and vanilla francaise). We also found a long self to all of the bottles we purchased, a smaller shelf with a rack to hang dish towels and some candle holders, one of which wraps around one of our bottles perfectly. I also found some frames, and a couple of books with precious quotes that I will use for inspiration when scrapbooking.
By the time we were home, I was exhausted and my feet were throbbing. We ate a quick dinner of left over pizza, Tyler watched a Robert DeNiro movie on Netflix and set up our new fish tank (Edward loves the extra room to swim around but Fredward keeps hiding in the shells and shale), and I caught a nap. Around nine we ventured out to the dollar store for screws where I found a navy rug for our front room for $25. We hung shelves and pictures, painted candle holders, and arranged the bottles on the shelf, before hitting Mc Donalds for a frozen strawberry lemonade, and dinner for Tyler. We finally settled in on the couch with a new series on Netflix, before heading to bed and snuggles.
Today I am waiting for our Direct TV repairman to figure out what is wrong with out dish. I also have quite a bit of school work to get done. Tyler is working a double today, so may be an awfully lonesome day; just me, Edward, & hiding Fredward.
I played slacker yesterday, since it was Tyler's first day off in a week. We had a really great day. We were suppose to go to the park, but it was hot and miserable, so Tyler made an executive decision. We got up late, went to the mall, where I found a fabulous sale on jeans and capris at Rue 21. I bought two pairs of capris for less than $25. I also got my nails filled and cut down, so I can type like a normal human being again. After our trip to the mall came the fun part....
I've always been a "snob" about shopping. If it isn't either expensive or with designer labels I typically don't want much to do with it. The joys of being a frivolous woman... LOL. I guess Tyler finally got me out of my shell about that. He decided that it was a good day to go "Goodwill" shopping, and it was. I didn't even know where "Goodwill" was located.
At the first location I was still a little weird about the whole idea, but Tyler found another fish tank for Fredward and Edward, with a functioning light. He also bought a couple of "poker" drinking glasses, that he was super excited about. That boyish smile always makes the unpleasant so worth while. I did browse a few of the clothing racks and saw a pair of Vera Wang Jeans and a pair of DKNY. I want to do some research on resale prices before I buy, as we could make a little profit on Ebay. If I could sell a pair of jeans for at least $8, I could double my money. I'm not sure if its worth the time it would take to look through racks of clothing... maybe some day!!
At the second location, I started to get into our "junk" shopping!! I found a bright and summery turquoise shoulder bag from The Sak for under $5 that actually fits all of my stuff. Then we started looking for objects to decorate our kitchen. Since Tyler has been home from his court appointed vacation, we haven't been able to agree on a particular style of decor, which is starting to come together (finally, it only took us 5 months), when I found this interesting looking bottle filled with sunflower oil, bay leaves, rosemary, juniper, etc. It was dark enough to appeal to Tyler, and had a tag from its Italian manufacturer which appealed to me. We also found a similar bottle with other herbs and spices with various peppers without tags, but it was interesting enough to match. We also bought a Foreman grill, a cutting block, and few other odds and ends.
The third location, I began having fun looking through the clutter. It was located on the lower east side, off of Southeastern Blvd, so we were in a beautiful and high-end neighborhood. I thought I had died and gone to shopping heaven when I spotted a vintage Prada handbag within the first 5 minutes. It was in a locked case for auction with several other high-end designer bags so I didn't ask about it. As we looked through what was the size of a small warehouse packed with "stuff" I found several other glass bottles with the same Italian feel as the other two we purchased. We also found this unique wooden bottle like nick-nack with a a waxy label. I can't really place what it resembles, but it looks very vintage (and looks incredible) with my new collection of bottles. I also found a set of three wall hangings that are about 8x8, ceramic, and I would guess to be hand-painted, with different variations of coffee (espresso chocolate, mocha cafe creme, and vanilla francaise). We also found a long self to all of the bottles we purchased, a smaller shelf with a rack to hang dish towels and some candle holders, one of which wraps around one of our bottles perfectly. I also found some frames, and a couple of books with precious quotes that I will use for inspiration when scrapbooking.
By the time we were home, I was exhausted and my feet were throbbing. We ate a quick dinner of left over pizza, Tyler watched a Robert DeNiro movie on Netflix and set up our new fish tank (Edward loves the extra room to swim around but Fredward keeps hiding in the shells and shale), and I caught a nap. Around nine we ventured out to the dollar store for screws where I found a navy rug for our front room for $25. We hung shelves and pictures, painted candle holders, and arranged the bottles on the shelf, before hitting Mc Donalds for a frozen strawberry lemonade, and dinner for Tyler. We finally settled in on the couch with a new series on Netflix, before heading to bed and snuggles.
Today I am waiting for our Direct TV repairman to figure out what is wrong with out dish. I also have quite a bit of school work to get done. Tyler is working a double today, so may be an awfully lonesome day; just me, Edward, & hiding Fredward.
Poem for Grandpa
I made a layout of my Grandfather's fish stories a few days ago, and it turned out ok. This morning I received an email from my grandma with this poem, I guess it would be called, and I need to figure out a way to incorporate it into this layout....
"We little knew that morning that God was going to call your name. In life we loved you dearly, in death we'll do the same. It broke our hearts to lose you, you did not go alone. For part of us went with you, the day God called you home. You left us peaceful memories, your love is still our guide, and though we cannot see you, you are always at our side. Our family chain is broken, and nothing seems the same, but as God calls us one by one, the chain will link again."
"We little knew that morning that God was going to call your name. In life we loved you dearly, in death we'll do the same. It broke our hearts to lose you, you did not go alone. For part of us went with you, the day God called you home. You left us peaceful memories, your love is still our guide, and though we cannot see you, you are always at our side. Our family chain is broken, and nothing seems the same, but as God calls us one by one, the chain will link again."
The more I look at this layout, I may have to make something new for this poem
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Student Loans
OMG... Well I finalized my student loans for the 2012-2013 school year today. It's terrifying to borrow yet another $15,000... It freaked me out even more when I was calculating the total I've borrowed thus far, not including the interest... almost $55,000, and I still have almost 6 years left of school... I'm not so sure if it's true that you can't put a price on an education...LOL!!!
Friday, May 25, 2012
Long Week
For some reason it seems like it has been a really long week. I'm sure part of this has to do with having entirely too much time on my hands. It amazes me just how much time I am capable of wasting. I've been out of school now for a month, and I still haven't really accomplished anything.
Saturday, May 19, 2012
Sleepy Girl
Well, I went to the doctor on Wednesday for my migraines, and the doctor prescribed me a muscle relaxer. I finally picked up my prescription yesterday afternoon. Prescription medication usually doesn't affect me heavily so unwisely I popped two pills in my mouth as I was making mashed potatoes for dinner. By the time we finished dinner and sat down on the sofa, I was done for the night. I do feel quite a bit better after 15 hours of sleep.
Thursday, May 17, 2012
Funk
I think I'm in a funk or something...I just have no ambition to do much of anything!!! For the last two days I've been so lazy and bitchy... Poor Tyler, putting up with me!!!
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Naughty Puppy
For the most part Izzy is a rock star dog. Most of the time she is pretty chill, likes to snuggle up on the couch, and love on us, but I'm starting to get seriously annoyed at her moments of separation anxiety. We have left her at home twice now for no more than ten minutes at a time. Not just the first time, but both times she greets me with a less than fresh smelling present on the floor when I get home. I'm not sure if it is some kind of separation anxiety or her pouting and simply being naughty!!!
Tyler's Mother's Day Layout
Monday, May 14, 2012
Rock Solid
We were driving to Gregory on Saturday afternoon, and it had seemed like we had been driving for ever, and Tyler was bitching incessantly. Of course I felt really bad because I know how he feels about my family, and spending one of his few days off in there presence, and driving 3 1/2 hours to do so was less than pleasant. That was when he told me that was why I should know just how much he loves me. It really made me think about what I would do if something ever happened to him. It also made me think back to everything we've been through. We've been through so many life changing obstacles that many couples never make it through. Somehow we've made it through his criminal activities and drug charges, a scary prison bid, trust and fidelity issues, loss, poverty, and sobriety. Somehow, through it all our relationship has become even more rock solid than ever.
Mother's Day
Mother's Day was relatively uneventful (which was much welcomed, after a busy Saturday). Saturday, Haley Rae was super excited about her Mother's Day gift that she made at school on Friday. They took colored paper plates, attached foam petals to it, and a light weigh wood stick that was painted green, foam leaves made out of her hand print, and in the eye of flower/paper plate was a picture of her attached and framed in a foam frame. Of all the gifts my children have given me over the years, the hand made gifts are my favorite. Of course when Haley gave me her gift, Rhianna told me she hasn't made me anything yet... I've been bugging her to make me something for my refrigerator for 2 years. I guess she's just outgrowing making her "uncool" mom refrigerator art. It's hard to believe that I've been a mom for almost 13 years.
On Mother's Day, I slept in with Tyler and Izzy. When I finally rolled out of bed, I managed to upload all the pictures that we took on Saturday. It was really kind of a lazy day. I vegged out on the couch most of the day. Tyler went and did a bit of grocery shopping for me, and brought me home a new package of photo paper and some chocolate. I put together a layout for him to give his mom, Jackie for Mother's Day, and took a nap. I was still really tired, and coming down with another miserable migraine headache, but I pulled it together, managed to dress and put on a touch of makeup, and we had dinner on Jackie's patio with her, her husband, Jason, and Tyler's brother, Maxwell. We got home around 10 pm when I watched my shows: Army Wives, Desperate Housewives, & The Client List. It was late when Tyler and I booted Izzy off the couch, snuggled up, and watched American Psycho. I was beat when we finally crashed around 4:30 am. All in all, it was a nice relaxing day.
First Communion
Friday, May 11, 2012
"Izzy"
Tyler and I have been looking for a dog since he came home in January. It was kind of a complicated situation since he still had Kaya, but his grandma had gotten attached to her while he was in prison, and he didn't feel right taking her back. Kaya stayed with us a month and a half ago, while his grandma was away, and it was clear that she was no longer his dog. Although he still loves her (sometimes I think he loves her more than he does me), he knew it was time to find a dog for us. We've been casually looking for a dog, and we finally found our baby. "Izzy" is an almost pure white pit, and she is incredible. I haven't seen that child like sparkle in his eye in a very long time.
Mothers Day/ Me Layout
I am so aggravated. As usual I left a project to the last minute. My master plan was to make layout for my mom, for mothers day using a picture of her and I shortly after I was born. I've dinked with it for weeks now. Anyway, I finally made a layout that I was finally happy with, printed a smaller version (as I don't have time to get a 12x12 sent off to the printer in time for mothers day), and realized there is a typo... the story of my life...lol
Thursday, May 10, 2012
Wednesday, May 9, 2012
Love & Anger
How do we really know when we love someone? Do we ever really know why we love that special someone. Tyler made a strange comment to me last night, to the effect that when we can't answer those questions is when we really do love them. He is the one person in this world that can piss me off more than anything, and I still want to kiss him until I can't breathe. I guess that is how I know that I love him, even more so why I am going to marry that boy. Needless to say I am irritated with him right now, but when he comes home and I see those big brown eyes and he takes me in his arms, all the frustration and anger will some how melt away. It always does.
Tuesday, May 8, 2012
Old Layouts
Well, I finally pulled out a file of scrap layouts from what seems like a million years ago. It was interesting to seen just how much my style has changed since first began scrapbooking. It seems so strange to see just how very much my life has evolved over the past five to ten years. It makes me laugh to seem my beautiful tweenage daughters as the wonderful children they were. I also reminds me just how very much I miss my Jack and Belle every time I pet a dog. I was also nice to see the layout of my nephew, Andrew, when he was just a baby. My ex-husband's brother, Troy's Iraq layout reminded me of some not-so-great memories of a marriage gone terribly wrong. It was a little sad to look at the one and only layout I've ever made using my grandfathers picture. I still miss him every day. I guess that's why I just can't seem to bring myself to scrap him.
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